SHIRTS OR SKINS
This was when I wasn't sure
if I was a boy any longer.
I would wait at the window
for the other boys
to press their faces
against the glass,
into the mold of mine.
To breathe their breath
up against this.
But they never came.
I couldn't wait
any longer. I had to start walking
towards the woods.
I came to a great stone;
big obsidian quiet
by a whole field
of magnetic afflictions,
strung out to dry,
under a sentinel hum.
Tall trees, I felt them:
toenails curled under
the toe, wet coils of pubis.
I could not make out the image
the stone wished to make for me,
but felt it wanted to make it.
Someone had washed
this certainly away
in a rain over
seamless dead skin;
a dark pit, sweet calloused center.
Hard candy stuck in the throat.
The stone could have fit the palm
of a giant perfectly, the stone
could have at least given me
a fingerprint. I tried
to find an opening,
but there was no way into it.
Under the trees
there were piles of salt.
No. They were people... once.
Powdered milk poured out
of missing children;
words like the dry
hiss of a gas leak,
or a jewelry
box of old coins,
with the faces bald and worn
off the carton,
but some of the dates still there:
last seen 1984, 92, 95...
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